invisible chains

Detectable dreams, violent screams
no one was there and nobody will be
you make me feel better
you make me feel better

A wall to the ignorance
you copy and paste
the loudness of silence 
in dangerous ways

you make me feel better
you make me feel better

There's nothing to complain about
invisible chains
the best of the best , how can you complain?
when you know that it's meaningless
when you know that it's meaningless

Disgusted by their apathy
bored with your anatomy
no one was there and nobody will be

you make me feel better
you make me feel better

copyright Soraya M Garcia  12/13/12

 PHOTOGRAPH

Numb and idiolized
too easy to be overheard
lost touch with dreams and yearning screams
and ran into the dark

not living just surving
betrayed in ways they couldn't see
making the clock run faster
faster than they could ever see

The urge of the nothing
 they all fall into
is tearing up the best of them
every single day
Time-outs and no soul
reading the nights and wasting the days
"A part of me is gone", she said
a part of me is gone


 

Maybe you want it

You're tied to everyone
make me forget what I do best
you lie and understand
that I am never like the rest

And I escape
I am the pillar of your strength
I am tired of collecting your tears
I'm tired of losing all my fears

You've failed me 100 days
you know I'll treat you like the rest
you run away to run back
you run away to run back
your fate is stuck on like glue
cause you seem to want it
stuck like glue cause you wanna stay the same 
no matter what I say
no matter what I do
you want your misery like you do

I get angry at the weak
I am so full of atrocities
no matter what I do
you want your misery like you do

VOICEFADE

It's like nobody knows anyone

It's like everybody's lying to everyone

your mind diseased, simple like a chewing gum

and you're the only one to know..................

copyright by Soraya Garcia 9/17/2012

INNOCENT

Nervous
faces, shallow embraces
useful timing
feeling , lightning...

everyone up
pushing anything down
losing your ways to be the king with the crown

exploding at night
crashing every day
what does it feel like to be relevant, boy?

Let go, let go
how does it feel to be the innocent girl?
Hello, halo
you know how it feels to be invincible, girl?

The last straw, your lost war
the engine of your mind has become lose
I find the light in myself
I find the light in myself.....

copyright by Soraya M Garcia 7/24/2012

NEW PICS by NORMAN BÖSCHE

UNIFiNISHED

UNIFiNISHED

Strangest dreams unfolding in the second of a life

thousand people chanting on the streets but no reply

the atmosphere is falling they can cut it with a knife

I can't see you standing they have stolen all your time

and with them, or without them

all you wanna do is fight

with the leaders and the cheaters

all you wanna do is fight

.....copyright: Soraya Garcia 7/12/12

NOT THEM

“NOT THEM”


through the darkest days
through the brightest nights
i can choose to feel
whatever i like

it's like you don't know me
it's like I don't know you
squeezed into the exit hole that is your normal life
I feel I'm suffocating
see myself leaving me behind

this is not me
this is not them
this is not you
this is all of them

don't tell me we are all of them
so many versions, so many missions to sell
and still running on the ground
still running around and around

don't tell me we are just like them
too many reasons, too many regrets

this is not me
this is not them
this is not you
this is all of them
copyright: Soraya M. Garcia, 7/12/12

The Times

Once and again

everything changed

you wanna take my freedom

you wanna take my soul

betrayed myself gone cold

apathy on iron tracks

I never thought you would

I never thought you could

and when all is changed

give meaning to the meaningless

Frozen and compliant

lonely and wired

buying compassion from the dirty floor

sweet high when they depress themselves

Visiting the cold stone

sugar and isolation

dragging the life off this world

looking for my dreams like a drowning sailor

I never thought you would

I never thought you could

and when all is changed

give meaning to the meaningless

copyright Soraya Garcia/Xsbition/5-19-2012

“ The way you lie”

Broken fires, pouring rain

need to crash the compromise

or see me go insane

my decision, other's names

this is my life

and i'm tired of playing games

gotta kill the compromise

gotta do what makes me feel alive

(2x)

The way you lie

the way you lie

it only matters

when i'm feeling lost

i don't know why

the way you want me

the way you cry

i only care

when i lose my alibies

you don't know

who i really am

you paint the picture

and leave the colours blank

my decision, other's names

this is my life

and i'm tired of playing games

“The way you lie” copyright by Soraya M. Garcia 2-11-2012

No work of "Fiction" - Jay Gordon of Orgy tells it all.............

Q&A with Jay Gordon of ORGY by Soraya Garcia

Even though he is in the midst of a whole new “Orgy” situation, producer, singer and nowadays also electronic artist Jay Gordon took the time to give us an update on his latest endeavours and insights....

 Q: Jay, not one day goes by without people asking you about the new “Orgy”. What was the main reason for changing the line-up and how are the fans reacting to this “Re-creation”?

Jay:Yeah that definitely stirred up shit with some of the fans on my FB page didn’t it? Oops. Not to mention a couple of the ORGY members getting really pissed about it as well, but you can’t please everyone, so there you have it. 

Guys in bands (myself included), are like having bitchy girlfriends sometimes, or in this case, bitchy ex-girlfriends.(laughs)

Actually I didn’t do it to set anybody off or anything. I think my decision for deciding to put a new line up together, was based on wanting to get back on the road and tour again mainly, but also, because all of the original members seemed so busy working on their other projects, that it just felt like the right thing to do.

I’m not hating on them for that either, nor am I trying to keep them from doing what they really want to do which is Julien-K (Editor's note: Band of former Orgy members Amir Derakh and Ryan Shuck), in my opinion, but what do I know?

Either way, I own the name, so I thought why not? I started this band, and see no reason why anyone would have a problem with me keeping the name alive, rather than let it completely fall to the wayside (which is what was happening). 

Talk is cheap, and that’s all it ever seemed to be, when the original members and myself had spoken about touring over the past few years. It just seemed like why not,you know?

Q:You have been out of the music scene's spotlight for a while, yet you have remained busy “behind the scenes” - What projects did you take on after “Orgy's” break?  

Man, what didn’t I do? Well let’s see, I had a son Jax, which was hands down the best thing that has ever happened to me in my life!! He is a little genius, and is so much fun. Love you buddy! 

I started up a couple of personal projects, that I’d always wanted to do (for fun mainly), to producing everything from Hip-Hop Indie Rock, as well as writing music, and doing various remixes with bands like Escape The Fate, Asking Alexandria, Blood on the Dance Floor, and more recent,  having lots of fun with various types of dance music, and now Djing,  Electro, and Dubstep... 

That kinda sums up the past 5 years or so, since the band hasn’t been on the road. Oh and let’s not forget the drugs/partying (Which always got me into way more trouble than I bargained for! Oops!), and the booze, followed by a plethora of failed relationship attempts.

All the drama one could ever hope for!! 

Yet somehow, even in the peaks of my hazey blaze, a sprinkle of good old hardcore reality always seems to work it’s way into the madness, to keep me on my toes just enough, to get it all figured out somehow... We’ll see. (laughs)                                                     

Q: Also, I am pretty impressed with your latest personal project “Kill-o-watt”. What is the inspiration behind it and who else is involved in it?  

Jay:Thanks a lot actually..I really do appreciate it when people say things like that. It means a lot to me, and inspires me to keep pushing forward. Very kind of you.

I’m always aiming to improve my musical abilities, and deliver a different perspective, which isn’t always easy.

Killowatt is just me at the moment. I worked on a track with Skrillex, but that will hopefully turn into the first Orgy single in a very long time, if everything works out as intended. 

Sonny is extremely busy as I’m sure you know, so I’m not quite sure what his involvement will be from this point forward. 

He did most of the music, which is amazing, and I’d love to get it out very soon!

Q: In the past, Orgy toured the States exclusively. Can you imagine a worldwide tour with “Kill-o-Watt” or Orgy ? Any tentative touring plans?

Jay:Yes yes and yes!!! It’s already in the works, and I’d love to get over to Europe especially...   

Q: Looking back to the first big chapter of “Orgy”- Is there anything you regret doing during that time? Is there anything you wish you would or wouldn't have done as a band?   

Jay:I have plenty of amazing memories to reflect on, when the time comes, and of course hind sight is 20/20, but I don’t have time to regret shit, you know? 

It’s not like I can really change anything that I fucked up on in the past. Life just happens, and I’d rather focus my efforts, on what the future holds in store...

Q: Are you looking forward to singing again, and how are you preparing for that?  

Jay: Hell yes I am totally looking forward to the next chapter.

Absolutely. I want it to be better than before. I have never really considered myself an actual singer in the grand scheme of things, so other than what I’m gonna wear on stage, I’m afraid I don’t have much of an answer for the preparation part of it, other than quitting smoking in the next few weeks.

I suppose I’m preparing to bring it hard and crazy, by any and all means necessary, and mostly try not to suck! (laughs)

Q: Which artists/scenes are interesting to you at the moment?

Jay: I like tons of stuff, and there isn’t enough room on the page to name all of them, but I am really digging guys like, Knife Party, Space Laces, Figure, Hirshee, Killowatt, and of course Sonny (Skrillex, who really inspired, and helped get me acclimated to the whole dj thing).

Q: Do you have a “motto” or credo you live by? Both personally and musically?  

Jay: Yeah keep it moving and turn down the suck button! (laughs)

Q:Has becoming a father influenced your musical work in any way?

Jay:Yes absolutely. Jax is the biggest and best inspiration, I could ever hope for...   

Q: What do you think is the biggest misconception people have about you?

Jay: I think the biggest misconception people have about me, is that I don’t care about important things, enough, which is the furthest thing from the truth, I just don’t have time to waste trying to explain what matters, when they should already know. 

I guess the obvious thing to say here is “Don’t watch me, watch TV...” Well you can watch me on tv if you want.(laughs)

Q:Thanks for the interview Jay, and best of luck!

Jay: It's been a pleasure, and thank you!