FALLEN ANGELS

Empty hearts

Fallen angels

Autographs

We’re running, we’re running away from it all

Numbing pain

Feel the same

Open wounds and torn-up letters

We’re running, we’re running away from it all

I thought you were so different

In the end you’re the best version of them

I’m drowning in your catacombs

You’re a fallen angel, a fallen angel

Aftermath

Bleeding scars

Fuck my loyalty

I’m sailing into nothingness

We’re running, we’re running away from it all

Do you ever exit your tunnel vision?

Can’t you feel sickening friction

I’m done

And we’re running away from it all 

Copyright by S.M.Garcia 11/28/2015

PRETTY.

I get bored
by the sight of you
and I know
what I am gonna do

You're standing on one side
there's nothing I can do
to make you follow
me

I am a million miles away
I'm hiding at my secret place
I think I threw the key away
and you're the one who made me find it
again


There's nothing pretty about this
There's nothing pretty about this
but some day it will make all make sense
lick my wounds you rip them up again

Now you're getting bored
and I can't follow
it's upside-down I feel so hollow
wish I had never seen that hole again
I'm hiding at my secret place

I get bored
by the sight of you
and I know
what I am gonna do

NOTHING

Wanna change the world
without them
wanna know your name if you please me
everything you do breaks my soul apart
but

you are nothing
you are nothing

So tired of mundane, boring people
they play with the pinks but all I see is black
running away for all the right reasons
cause

you are nothing
you are nothing

All the plans we had they make me sad
all the blinding lights they make me mad
you let me down and betrayed yourself

you are nothing
you are nothing


I don't fit it and I never tried
rather be alone than feed your lies
talk to one of them and it's all the same

you are nothing - to me

"Nothing" by S.M. Garcia 7/14/2015

Shadow

So crushed
your life
just nothing right
all you have become is nothing that I wanna know

Living inside
distorted eyes
no one can reach you
no one can make you come alive

and all I can see is you're becoming your own shadow
all that I can hear is warning voices everywhere
everytime I try to push you up to follow
make no sense to me, seems like you don't wanna be free

Attention whore
or something more?
why do you close down everything that ever made you smile
such greedy hands for broken plans
no one can reach you
no one can make you come alive


and all I can see is you're becoming your own shadow
all that I can hear is warning voices everywhere
everytime I try to push you up to follow
make no sense to me, seems like you don't wanna be free

copyright Soraya M Garcia 6-14-2015

Radiohead - Optimistic

"Optimistic"

Flies are buzzing around my head
Vultures circling the dead
Picking up every last crumb
The big fish eat the little ones
The big fish eat the little ones
Not my problem give me some

You can try the best you can
If you try the best you can
The best you can is good enough
[x2]

This one's optimistic
This one went to market
This one just came out of the swamp
This one dropped a payload
Fodder for the animals
Living on an animal farm

If you try the best you can
If you try the best you can
The best you can is good enough
[x2]

I'd really like to help you man
I'd really like to help you man.....
Nervous messed up marionette
Floating around on a prison ship

If you try the best you can
If you try the best you can
The best you can is good enough
If you try the best you can
If you try the best you can
Dinosaurs roaming the earth [x3]

 

"Optimistic" written by Radiohead. 

SoulCrusher

Caught in your ego-ways
all you think about is yourself
no matter what you do
the focus always has to be on you

but I don't really feel like watching
I don't really feel like watching you burn


You're putting me down
firing me up 
you spin me around
and you crush my soul

Demanding way too much
not giving back
you make me feel numb
and you crush my soul

You never care about what other people feel
you're tunnel vision won't allow you to see
everything you're messing up again
you just don't care you'll always stay the same

SoulCrusher copyright by S. Garcia

All We Have

We don't need to tell you who we are

We don't don't need to tell you where we're going

We know that the end is gonna come

only if we want it to come

You'd die to live

and he doesn't know 

he doesn't care

he likes to put on a show

It's black and white and gold

no place to turn no one to hold on to

never safe - but savouring moments

you never know when it's gonna come

And we suck the life out of it

we allow them everything

someday it won't matter but it matters now and that's all we have

all we have

all we have

You're feeling guilty cause you're playing with their time

feeling so brittle you could burst into pieces

after all these years you're further from me than you could ever be

the price I paid for running from mediocrity

You'd die to live

and he doesn't know 

he doesn't care

he likes to put on a show 

"All We Have" - Soraya Garcia  12-9-14

STUMBLE

When you follow
you follow
so shallow
find another way
we stumble 
we fall down
we break and we run away

everyone's different and yet the same
we stumble we fall and we break and we just run away
everyone's different and yet the same
we stumble we fall and we break and we just run away........

There's a fight inside
a war outside
erasing light
and buying time

copyright S. Garcia 7-27-14

Is this who you are?

Yeah, I've been to Jupiter
And I've fallen through the air
I used to live out on the moon
But now I'm back here down on earth
Why are you here?
Are you listening?
Can you hear what I am saying?
I am not here, I'm not listening
I'm in my head and I'm spinning
Is this who you are?
Some sweet violent urge
A weak fallen man
With the promise of an end?
All the pretty people died
Innocence is out of style
All the whores have gone away
Now there's nothing left for me
Why are you here, are you listening?
Can you hear what I am saying?
I am not here, I'm not listening
I'm in my head and I'm spinning
Is this who you are?
Some sweet violent urge
A weak fallen man
With the promise of an end?
Is this who you are?
Some sweet violent urge
A weak fallen man
With the promise of an end?

All the props go to 30 Seconds to Mars, who wrote this song. It's called "fallen". 

ALL WE GOT

No, they can't change
no matter what you try
in the hollow
there's nothing new inside

You let me down
cause there is no other way
You let me down
cause I don't know how to stay

We talk but we don't listen
we see but we don't understand
the only thing that's missing
is another way, another chance

Looking for another way
tired of staying and running away
at the same time
is this all we got?
all we got to try


 by S. Garcia 7/13/14

DRY

DRY

Hide behind excuses

I don't have a word to say

to you

if it mattered it would all be here

and somedays I believe them

the rollercoaster is getting faster

you love the dizzy spells

I am starting to stay longer

though I am not seeing you anymore

Every day is spinning so far away

from what we wanted

every day a little more

your dream's become a once-told notion

we can't remember and you've forgotten

They all play on different sides

running to be all in line

questioning your lies

almost pretending to believe them

in the end it's all the same

we can't remember and you've forgotten

copyright Soraya M Garcia 07/03/14

Best friends forever

A story I wrote a while ago and got published: http://www.freshviewer.de/artikel/97

ENJOY.

COLD AGAIN

I wanna know who you are

trapt in all these second faces

I think I really know your scars

hidden from reality

 

who are you to fake it?

who are you to shake it up?

I wanna to see you faded

I wanna know my life's not forgotten

With everything you've been through

You tell me that you wanna get cold again

the normal vision kills you

you tell me that you wanna get cold again

Never the authentic one

changing games and changing places

too far away to make me run

hidden from reality

 

copyright Soraya M Garcia 5/17/2014

FALLEN

Missions of sand that are endless
questions and questions surprise me and can lead me on
I'm not like most that you met and
I' m not like most that you know

where do you go when everything falls
where do you go when there's nowhere left to run
where do you go when they leave you alone
where do you go when the demolition starts

We are the fallen
We are the that ones came undone
We are the liars
We are the only ones

Once you turn it up, they will turn it down
every time you're clean, they will dirt you up
can't leave the fakeness, can't leave your lies
stay though I know you're the devil in disguise 

where do you go when everything falls
where do you go when there's nowhere left to run
where do you go when they leave you alone
where do you go when the demolition starts

"Fallen" copyright Soraya M. Garcia 3-15-2014

immortals

We don't need anyone to get us through
and now I'm back at my place
back in my truth

I never wanted to belong and I guess I never will
I don't even think about you
I never wonder about you

cause all you do 24/7
is playing with their time
and I feel like such a liar
when I know you're killing their immortality

and it's all coming out now
everybody's been in this too long
and it's all coming out now
everybody who's right is wrong

and i feel like such a liar
i feel like such a liar
i let you go around
killing immortals to the sound of your chains

*immortals* by soraya garcia 17/02/14

CRACKED

I spent my nights on telepathy
am I the truthful wannabe
I know your lies
I know your secrets

why do you run around so much
wish I didn't tell you everything
are we two, or are we no-one

You don't care about my cracks
in the end I'm more broken than you
but I don't care
It's all a fantasy
we all play games to run away 

I see you raining on my vision
my pain will never be yours
living alone, together we don't touch
it's all mine
 could all be better if we ran away

copyright Soraya Garcia 12/14/13

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KNOTS

A million knots, not undone
not vanishing, never calm

they have their iron fortress
idiolized for being dumb

Nowhere to touch
nowhere to go
foggy memories
hiding all the withered scars

and you're not the only one
removed from life and all its sadness
removed from everyone
gone without the shiny gun

© S.Garcia 11-25-13

GUILTY

All the late night calls
broken telephones
no one there to fight
breathing though the nite

we all want something we never wanted
when we fall apart
we all want something that never lasted
through the course of all

Tell me why
Tell me why, Tell me why
do you wanna me make me guilty
Tell me why, tell me why
do I feel so hurt when I look at you
makes me cry, makes me cry 
I don't wanna be guilty
and somehow it won't ever mean so much at all

Broken promises
getting more of what you started
raining autumn leaves
your time is up don't fight it

we all want something we never wanted
when we fall apart
we all want something that never lasted
through the course of all

"GUILTY" copyright Soraya Garcia 8/13/2013

THEIR WORLD

Fitting into the dummies' world
a toxic ordeal in the end
when they holler at the mundane
so interested and mean

you're just a another wanna-be searcher
everything about this is so unreal
I just wanna turn it all over
but you keep looking at what I never see

I wanna get out
a world where the bad ones are good and the other way around
I wanna fight it
I wanna change it all around
Never the great pretender
 it's all so simple for the ones with the sun in their hearts
but you're not like them

copyright by Soraya M Garcia 5/13/13

A PIECE OF YOUR LIFE

They were everywhere. People. Had he lost mind, he asked himself. Things had changed, times had become shorter, attention spans didn't exist anymore and life had become, well, somewhat dry. Pretty dry actually. He remembered what it was like to be a kid again. Summers that seemed to last a lifetime, days that never wanted to end. "He must have REALLY lost is mind......" The voice in his head had grown louder.  The sadness and disappointment with life he had always dragged along with himself like that special box your mom never wanted you to discover, had finally overthrown him. He shuffled his way through the hot streets of his semi-decaying city and watched the laughing, playing children, chatty mothers and proud fathers as if he had been separated from them by an invisible wall. As if they were in a slow motion world where happiness was somehow attainable. Flashback. He knew this feeling far too well. Being disconnected and cold inside made you feel strong, but somehow, it also killed everything you could ever feel. He wondered if he could feel, if he was able to feel. Anything but this fucking cold, or this fucking pain. Somehow it all was the same anyway. A sticky melting-pot of fucked up non-emotions waiting to follow him until the day he died, or so he thought...